Two

2019

This year brings me a lot of happiness. I've changed my title to someone's wife. That means a lot to me. For the first three months, things were great. We went to Mabul and Tawau to celebrate our honeymoon. 

2019

I've been pressured to get pregnant even though I'm not ready for it. Convinced my husband to try. A month later, I found out that I'm pregnant. Felt so grateful because the pressures are declining. Yeay! Throughout the journey, I've taken care of myself extra. I controlled the food intakes. I never skipped folic acid and milk to ensure my baby is growing healthy. 

2019

Nevertheless, my morning sickness was bad. I can't cook or else my allergic reaction will become worst. Asking for my husband to assist me. He did. 

2019

Carrying a baby needs the parents to spend a little in order to provide the best for the lil' bud. My husband and I have started to have conflict - financially. I've tried my best to withstand with all physical stresses. My husband, an inexperience guy, tried to do the house chores, which led to another conflict - Exhaustion.

2019

I've told my husband once, "I don't want us (the child and I) become a burden to you." And every night, I will tell the baby, I'm sorry for unable to be calm.Please be strong with mommy. Whatever happen, mommy will protect you. Yet, I prayed to Allah, please do not let us become the burden to my husband.

2019

Allah listens to us. However, in my week 10 of carrying my child, I've been informed that my child didn't grow and I'm experiencing missed miscarriage. Allah, He has taken my angel away. The baby doesn't want to burden his/her father.